to be loved

vast figures in the background get smaller and fade from view the further along we get. i'm getting the picture, so blurry before. i'm getting to where i need to be. what's done is done, and what i have is so complete and completely sound and abound with love and life and futures that go on for miles and miles to come. 

i can touch and feel and see and hear and taste the team we have become. i can get around the get around and see the big picture. it's so hard to see the big picture amongst the weeds and the reeds, blowing in the wind. any which way for whatever you've supplanted yourself in. 

home is getting closer. getting closer everyday. just around the bend. for the first time in 10 months i'm no longer dying. i'm living a fantastic life that somehow snuck up on me. i'm real life. 

i fly home tomorrow. so many places, so many stories fill my limbs and lips. so many faces and features embedded and indebted to. 

cambodia has changed my life.

i have changed my life.

you have changed my life.

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