seconds

we immortalize the blame. we take seconds to soothe the loss. we soothe the loss with weight. we take seconds to roll over to the blame. to the names we never knew. written in sand to wash away. we accept the tides for what they are. we take seconds and try to make it mean something. something more. we take seconds like it means something. anything at all. we take what we can get. we take as much as we can. and we run. we throw our weight around, and then we run. run away from what we can't take. from what we can't have. from who we can't be. we crawl around, weeding through the carpet, trying to find some time. more time. time to reconcile. time to rehearse the lines we think they want to hear. we try to find the endings they want to see. we try to find pieces of who we used to be. on our knees, we weed around the carpet.

i bought meals for starving children. and now, now i buy another round of beers and throw my arms back.

we immortalize the blame. we take seconds to soothe the loss. we throw our arms back. like it means something. like it means anything at all.

with all the luck we've had, why are our songs so sad? when you giggle, can i tape you?